Friday, June 3, 2016

Update: Dealing with Grief

Hello to anybody who may still happen to be around. More than usual I've been quite MIA in the blogging community due to the fact I've not only been quite busy but also because I've had to deal with the ramifications of a death of somebody very close to me. To say that recent times haven't been easy would be quite the understatement and it would be no exaggeration to say this is the toughest time I've been through in my nineteen years of existence.

I thought I would be prepared for the impact a death would have in my life. It was one that wasn't unexpected and something I knew would sadly happen, nonetheless when it happened it honestly hit me very hard. I have learned first hand there is no way to be fully prepared for a death of a loved one and the resulting impact it will have on your life.

I suppose I have learned many things recently. Such as how to cherish all memories both good and bad, yet not to get lost in them, how to sleep when your mind is going a million miles a minute and how that it is okay to feel and that you should take time to do so. Regularly in society crying is associated with weakness and I definitely don't think that should be the case. Crying is a natural emotional release and is something that shouldn't be ostracized, it is okay to cry.

So what is this purpose of this post? I can assure you that is isn't to garner further sympathy.

This post is less about getting into the details of my own situation and more so the struggles of moving forward when all you want to do is just lock yourself in your room and never face such an unfair world, which all of a sudden just has this gaping hole. It is about some of my feelings and observations that I hope will serve the dual purpose of not only being therapeutic for me to write but also helpful for others.

This post is for people who have experienced or are currently going through similar circumstances and feel like they're alone. It's for those people who do feel totally isolated when grieving and even a long time afterwards still feel the sting and that nobody could possibly understand what they're going through.

I'm here for you, no matter what you need or want. If you don't want to talk about it (understandably) I'm still here for you. Whether it be as a distraction to take your mind off things for a bit.

As for myself I'm doing fairly well I think. For blogging I do have a few posts and such planned so despite my recent inactivity expect to see some action here soon.

Love you to bits.
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